Personally, I wouldn't even bother with these forums anymore Pyro. Most of these people on here couldn't care less. Just look at my post (now on the second page...) and you'll see how I even asked people to PM me or contact me as I'm struggling just to stay alive. Who responded? Nobody. Obviously you have to put on a show, entertain, and make a spectacle of yourself for these people just to pay attention to what you're saying and talk to you! Only then, if it pleases them, will they feel satisfied and respond. It's people like them that make this world unbearable to live in -- I for one will not play the part of circus freak.
Just be honest and tell me to kill myself now.