I'm done. I can't move forward, I can't let go and I can't keep fighting through life. I am just so drained out - emotionally, physically, mentally. Sorry, I'm not looking for attention here and I don't mean to be so selfish; I just want to be heard! My family do not hear me. Why?? I had attempted already and they just brush it off like it never happened despite seeing me in a bad way. I am not a strong enough person to live this life. I don't have the energy to do the smallest things, to go to uni, to work or just out - I am not depressed so please don't suggest I am. I've tried to ask for help but either I can't access it or I am stopped in someway. Both counselling and medication are not possible options for me. Things aren't getting better and I really don't want to be here anymore. I had the courage once and I can do it again but I just can't fail. Yet if I die then they win - this is tormenting my mind. I'm done trying to make things better - to give up or to stop caring I really don't know.