i wake up everyday feeling the same pain and guilt. I mean nothing to anyone in life. I am sick of being scapegoated by my family. I am tired of people holding over my head that I drink (fun fact: sometimes, doing that to someone is somewhat counter productive) It's hard to find the courage to take my life, but my life is shit and no matter what I do, nothing matters. The only time i matter is when I did somethng wrong. It's time to end my mistake of a life.