I dont want to go on anymore. I have been suffering so much pain for so long. I am constantly terrified. I dont trust anyone and am constantly waiting for the next terrible thing to happen. I spent the last 7 years of my life in an abusive marriage.......until my husband got sober a year ago. I still cant trust him. I grew up with an alcoholic father and have struggled with depression and anxeity since childhood. I am just constantly suffering. B3fore anyone suggests I go get some help......I have. I have been on at least 20 different meds. I have been in various modes of therapy for 10 years. Ive done yoga, supplements, light therapy. Nothing. It wouldnt make a difference if I was gone. I wont be leaving behind any children. No one needs me. The world would keep spinning. I am so very tired.