I just dont know how much longer i can hold on anymore i just woke up and the first thing i think about is getting my knife and cutting my wrists. before i used to have a part of me that would be scared to do it but this time i just started to laugh and get really happy about it. thoughts keep going through my mind about how wonderful it would be to kill myself. there is no longer a part of me that is scared anymore. i keep thinking about how much easier it would be for my friends and family if i were dead. i dont feel like i am needed anymore that my life is done i just know that i am gonna kill myself soon cause if i continue to wake up and have these thoughts as soon as i wake i wont be able to last much longer.