Hi, im totally done. Everyday i get headaches just running through scenarios and methods for my own suicide. Its all i want. I have BPD, chronic depression, anxiety, insomnia, Bulimia, i self harm. Atm im stuck in a starve-binge purge cycle. Im so miserable. I leave the house once a week to get meds, i get foodd delivered to the door. All i do is fantisize about my own death. Who will find me? How long will it take? Will i do it at home or somewhere else? So many questions. Ive been in the psyche ward twice already this year for suicide attampts. I failed. I dont want to fail again. Im totally done.