i am officially tired of this. i had one of the best weeks in along time. now its back to this shit again. every time i feel better, i will feel worse shortly after. whether or not god helped me out and listened to give me a good week, why can't god just listen to me and kill me now. im not going to wait around and hope i'll feel as good as i did. its not worth it anymore. once again cut my self at work today. cutting wont kill me. i can't cut deep enough.