I can't take life any more. Every little thing brings me closer to the end. I'm starting a new medication, which is supposed to make you gain weight, and that has made me even more depressed. So I've started hiding them. They were the only meds I was on, so now I have nothing. Nothing to keep me going. I act so fine at school. I don't even know how I do it, every second I'm being pulled closer and closer to the bottle of pills that I keep in my room. The worst part is, I can't cry. I just...can't. I wish I could, but I haven't cried in months. Years.