im just so fed up ... there is so much going on it would be a long post to explain it all, but, basically,i have no one really who gives a crap, apart from one or two people, which sounds great but that one person who i really care about and who really cares about me is leaving cause well cause they have to and i just cant cope with anything right now. my family hate me. im going no where, im a failure in everything i do - i just cant cope, i cant keep going. i have something called PTS amnesia. basically i lost the first 26 years of my life in a moment, gone. i remember nothing of what happened i know i was attacked, raped bad, now 15 months on, im just - i cant do it
i have a counsellor. when i lost my memory i ended up with doctors and stuff, i had no idea who i even was let alone family or what had happened, so had to re learn everything, like, everything ... so had the whole mental health team involved..... you ever feel like your trying for nothing though. like, you put everything into making it through one day to wake up and start all over, to try again, and again and eventually the days just become to much. its like nothing matters in my life, so why keep doing it. why keep pushing through each day, what is the point. i just feel so tired .... you know
God knows that I know how you feel. Tired, wondering why...why go on, why keep struggling.
I wish I had a magic answer that made everything bright and easy for you. I wish I could give you a hug and help you through. People here care about you. We might not be able to come over and sit with you and rent a movie and ply you with popcorn (lol that helps me sometimes), but we can listen. You can rage, cry and vent here without others passing judgment. We will help you all we can. Know you have touched lives. You touch someone every day weather you know it or not.