im just so fed up ... there is so much going on it would be a long post to explain it all, but, basically,i have no one really who gives a crap, apart from one or two people, which sounds great but that one person who i really care about and who really cares about me is leaving cause well cause they have to and i just cant cope with anything right now. my family hate me. im going no where, im a failure in everything i do - i just cant cope, i cant keep going. i have something called PTS amnesia. basically i lost the first 26 years of my life in a moment, gone. i remember nothing of what happened i know i was attacked, raped bad, now 15 months on, im just - i cant do it