I'm done fighting this. I'm done dealing with backstabbing friends, abusive family members, having nowhere to turn to, no one I can talk to. I've fucked up majorly this time and I could end up in jail, all because my fucking fake friend posted a status on Facebook and then was texting me saying how he'll go to my tutor about the fact I've been smoking cannibus lately and get me drug tested and kicked out of course, and will link the mental health team to my tumblr where I posted some suicidal quotes and pictures of people cutting. He knows about my history with self harm, so apparently they will have to take action and will hospitalize me. I'm fucking screwed either way so why not just steal all the glory from him and kill myself? I honestly don't see what's stopping me this time. I'll be home alone tonight, I've got my sertraline to over dose on and my blades to cut with, and if that fails there's a train station just down the road.