I've been Pretty depressed forabout 4 or 5 months now. I lost my job a week ago and everything has hit rock bottom, I can't find a job now and my parents are threatening to kick me out, I argue with alot of friends because of this stress and I skip doing anything fun etc. I go the see a councelor 3 times a month but it doesnt really help, they won't let me have medicines because I always tell them that seems like a nice easy way to say goodbye to the world. I have no motivation anymore and soon I will be kicked out only to live outside and die. My grandfather died today and I think this is why the topic has been made, I'm such a pathetic person that I can't kill myself. I just can't bring myself to do it, silly old me thinking that everything will get sorted. I still want to die but I'm too scared. I'm 17 incase you are wondering.