it was supposed to be a fun night for me but i didnt have any fun, i cant enjoy anything anymore, so im drinking now again, that always seems to dull the pain. i get anxiety attacks, i dont want to do anything, and i just feel nothing all the time, i know this is gonna sound cliche as hell but its just how i feel, it feels like theres no point in doing anything, no point to live anymore for me. im so fuckin tired of just living every fuckin day after day after day...but i know ill feel like this everyday forever and ill keep living like this forever. what do u guys do to get through the day? because im running out of things to do.