It hurts to the point of not being able to explain it. I get so worked up and start breathing faster. Does anyone care in this world about me? I am questioning this today. I tried to ask my instructor questions about a project in class and he got upset and told me he'd come back when I figured it out. He never came back so I left. I go to school to learn and I get yelled at. The last 4 years have been bad and the last 5 months even worse. Is school for me? I have to go to my counselor tomorrow. I am so unstable right now. I can't find my guns. My parents hid them. I have other means of death if need be. I am on the vurge of insanity. Do suicides go to hell? I was raised in a Christain home. But have never got an answer. Sorry to rant and vent. Everyone has problems of their own, why listen to mine. Peace.