I feel like I've done all that I can, said all I can say for people. But when I need someone, no one is ever there. I dated a guy, but I had to leave him. He spent far too much time on a forum site. I cared about him but he threw what we had away so he could be online. So I dated a girl from the same site he was on. I actually cared about her, it wasn't a "revenge" tactic. I would have given my god damn life for her. Hell, I was prepared to move across the fucking world for school just to see her every weekend. And she leaves me because I have too many problems. I threaten my life, and neither of them wants anything to do with me ever again. They lost all respect for me they said. Now they're fucking together? Stabbed right in the fucking back. I'm contemplating an attempt again. After everything I said to everyone here about staying I'm ready to go die again. I'm such a fucking failure, and a hypocrite. But it doesn't matter... I've called for help and no one is coming. I'm just so done. I'd be out this fucking second if I could, but I'm being watched. Someone knows I'm trying... So tuesday. I'll have everything ready tuesday. This might as well be a "farewell."