I used to drink a lot when I had friends, then I began to drink my pain away. I haven't had a drink in months (because I can't get it easily, I'm only 17, and I also have no social life anymore), but in the past six days I've gone through 2 and a half 40 oz's of vodka. Just drinking, alone in my room and acting like the maniac I am - talking to myself, laughing for no reason, etc. I want to quit before it gets out of hand, but I don't know if I want to. I am, after all, hopeless now and have been on the verge of suicide for months now. What's the point in not drinking if I can? What have I got to lose?