I've got so many emotions racing through me right now. I feel like doing something stupid..I don't think I want to die..but I really don't know if I can take it anymore. I've lost the most important person ever. Thinking of him makes me want to ball my eyes out. Half the time I try to speak to him, he doesn't even respond. I've given up. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I've always hated myself. Its just worse now. Any advice? I'm afraid I'm gunna do something bad if I just go on this way. thank you for anyone who reads this.