I am an 18 y.o male, I should be enjoying my life right now but I am far from that at this moment in time.. I have a pretty messed up home life with a schizophrenic and manic mother who has repeatedly attempted suicide and it has been me who has found her every time. My dad isn't around so it is me that has to sort out everything. I am heavily addicted to skunk, i need to smoke it every day in order to get to sleep otherwise I won't get a wink. I am extremely lonely, I can't get a girlfriend to save my life, i swear i have like no friends and im failing college because all the weed ive smoked has made me feel like a brainless zombie. The overwhelming feelings of loneliness and depression have pushed me over the edge, i can no longer keep on living like this. I really do want to live but i am losing reason to, with every day that goes by. I just don't know what to do!? Any advice?