I'm not going to post a sad story, no one wants to be bored with it. I'm not using my real name nor my real account, so I would like it if the people reading it didn't pry into my life. I am fully content to finally move on to the next world. My family and friends have always told me it would be hell, but the truth is...I'm not afraid. I'm so content, I've said all my goodbyes to the people who helped me. I've had a hard time growing up, I've always been stressed and depressed, it's funny because my family and friends always thought it to be video games and whatnot, I never bothered to tell them why. I am finally content to move on. I've gotten rid of any personal trails, wiped my hard drives, and done all that. I am ready to feel death's warm embrace. I've thought about it for ages, and I've been on this site for years seeing people worry and whatnot. I did some good in my life, I helped a few of them. I'm surprisingly not afraid of the pain, or the quest of what will happen when I close my eyes forever. I'm also not crying, which is hilarious because I've always been a crybaby. For the first time, I'm really content with a choice I made and know what I'm doing is right in the heart. My entire life I wanted happiness, I deserve it don't I? Since I was a kid I followed everything my family wanted. No one bothered to ask what I wanted in life, what I truly wanted. I know what awaits me at the end will be fire, I know there will be suffering, but I am content with it. I've lost all faith in God, yet I'm so very happy right now. I dunno why I'm even typing this...it just feels good to let some emotions out. I've been a failure my entire life, I have no luck, and the hilarity of it is I'll die a virgin in my 20s. Hey, maybe God would have mercy on me for at least never having sex. But yeah, I'm so very content right now. I have the entire thing planned out, and I won't have regrets. That's all I wanted to say, just words. Thanks for looking at them, please don't call the cops or track my IP address. I won't do it tonight anyway, but I know when I will, I'll do it peacefully. Thank you.