Recently I've been suffering from horrible thoughts, thoughts that are inhuman and sick. I've had enough of this. It's like I can't control my thoughts anymore. I'm always alone and I know I should get out and get some friends but I can't. I feel so bad about my thoughts. I can't even write them here. I always fear what if I would do something that I've had those horrible thoughts about. It makes me sick. I want to end this. I'm so fucked up that it scares me. But you probably are going to say that they are just thoughts. Sure they are but they make me want to kill myself. How can I continue my life?