^ Title, i'm sick of not being good enough for anybody and i'm sick of being a 25 year old loser. Sorry, I'll reword that i'm sick of being a 25 year old loser to everybody else. I'm 25 years old, I've never had a girlfriend in my life. Never felt boobs, kissed a girl nothing. I'm not gay or a pedophile and i'm attracted to girls just fine. I just seem to feel isolated from them. I have no "real life" friends they're all online and everybody thinks i'm a loser for that, and I spend 99% of my day on the computer playing video games, coding or other activities. So i'm most definitely a tech geek I love "pimping" out my computer and doing things to it. And... i'm happy. But i'm not happy in a way. It tears my family apart because they don't think i'm happy. And i'm not ready for the world despite being self employed and able to make enough to go to school. And... everybody thinks going to school is the biggest joke in the world.
I know if I ever had a girlfriend that most of my depression would probably melt away but how am I going to take care of a girlfriend when I can't even take care of myself? My hygeine is non existant because everybodys got me so depressed that I don't even give a fuck anymore. I don't do all the pimping anymore or video games or coding or well.... anything.
So, i'm just done. I lack the drive to even remotely continue anymore and I won't be missed by anybody because nobody even knows who the fuck I am.
I don't really see a point in living anymore when i'm worthless and unacceptable to everyone else.
I know if I ever had a girlfriend that most of my depression would probably melt away but how am I going to take care of a girlfriend when I can't even take care of myself? My hygeine is non existant because everybodys got me so depressed that I don't even give a fuck anymore. I don't do all the pimping anymore or video games or coding or well.... anything.
So, i'm just done. I lack the drive to even remotely continue anymore and I won't be missed by anybody because nobody even knows who the fuck I am.
I don't really see a point in living anymore when i'm worthless and unacceptable to everyone else.