I can't put up with much of anything anymore. I don't even have the energy left to deal with most of anything anymore. I'm afraid for what that means.. I don't want to do anything I'll regret, but it's almost like I can't stop myself. I've been angry my whole life, but now things are different. Have been for a few years. I have my ups every now and then, but when I get to the downs I just don't want to do anything but hurt myself.. I've made promises too. And I don't want to break those promises, but it's becoming increasingly difficult... I'm just not really sure what to do anymore.