I'm a 23 year old that suffers from schizophrenia. I feel like life and this disease has beaten me. I can't do this anymore. Everyone I feel is scared of me because of my mental illness or pity's me. Half the time I can't even feel anything emotionally. My hallucinations and my life so far have convinced me I'm a monster, I'm evil and it never mattered what I did i life i still would have been treated and viewed the same. And I'm giving up, i just want to die with some dignity and I think that urge is whats keeping me going. I just don't want to be small in the eyes of someone before I go.