I just wanted to tell everyone I'm still here, still fighting my depression, and i have some good news. I saw my psychologist today. He told me that the reason I've been so depressed lately is probably due to a medication I've been taking. About two weeks ago, I ate something I was apparently allergic to and broke out in hives. My G.P. gave me steroid pills to take- a massive dose of them. I only stopped taking them a few days ago. My doctor I saw today said that these can cause depression, especially in people who are prone to it. Apparently, a high dose of steroids makes your body stop producing certain hormones and chemicals and then, when you suddenly stop taking them, it takes a while for your body to start producing these chemicals again. So you feel depressed and out of sorts, and some people can fall into very bad depressions and mood swings. I think this is what happened to me, and I am so happy to hear that there is light at the end of the tunnel! Can you imagine- I almsot threw away my whole life because of somethign that is probably temporary! All I needed to do was see my doctor and wait. And I could have lost my whole life. I'm so glad I didn't do it!! Thank you all for helping me. I will stay on this forum to both get and give support. You will all be seeing me around.