I'm glad I found this place

Discussion in 'Welcome' started by ThinBlueFlame, Jul 25, 2015.

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  1. ThinBlueFlame

    ThinBlueFlame Member

    Hi, everyone. I'm 33, female, and live in Washington, DC. I've suffered from depression for as long as I can remember. My first (and only) suicide attempt was when I was 18. I absolutely hate my job. I've been working there for about 4 years. I work from home and the nice thing about that is that it's allowed me to move around in an attempt to figure out where I really want to live. However, the bad thing is that I'm totally isolated. I moved to DC about a year ago and my main goal was to find an office job but every time I think about job hunting I feel utterly terrified and hopeless. In general, I've been feeling very anxious, sad, overwhelmed, and out of control. And scared. My brain is scary. I used to be able to distract myself by going to concerts, reading, going out for coffee, etc., but now I don't want to leave my house or deal with people. Totally shutting down is new to me and it's worrisome. I feel like I can't talk to my friends or family about how terrible and hopeless I'm feeling.
     
  2. Shadowlands

    Shadowlands Official SF Hugger Staff Alumni

    Welcome to the site. Lots of friendly people here. :hug:
     
  3. Northern

    Northern SF Supporter

    Welcome to the site! Working from home is not a good thing for people like us. I hope you will start looking again and find something you like.

    Good luck!
     
  4. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Welcome to the forum, I hope you can feel at ease talking to us here. Many folks here isolate themselves, shut themselves off from the world so we will understand :hugs:
     
  5. AAA3330

    AAA3330 Well-Known Member

    Welcome to the forum. Something is wrong with my brain and it feels like it's kind of shut down. I used to be active and do a lot of things and enjoy life, but besides going out to eat once a day, I don't do much of anything. I used to listen to music and watch tv. I still spend a lot of time on the computer, but most of it is on this site or researching, trying to figure out what is wrong with me. I'm sorry that you're feeling so down.
     
  6. ThinBlueFlame

    ThinBlueFlame Member

    Thank you Shadowlands, Northern, and Petal. :)

    Thanks, AAA3330. I'm sorry you're feeling shut down and isolated. I forced myself to go to a movie with a friend of mine yesterday. For the most part, I enjoyed myself and am glad I went. But suicidal thoughts crept in at random times. I know everyone here will understand...it feels SO weird being surrounded by people enjoying themselves and having such terrible thoughts and nobody knows what's actually going on inside my head.
     
  7. Cicada 3301

    Cicada 3301 Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    I'm glad you found us too :) Welcome to SF :hug:
     
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