I'm going insane, I'm having trouble fighting everything. I can't get out of this mood it's been a couple days now, it feels like my whole world has been turned upside down, everything is going dark for me, I feel like nothing is the same, like things won't get better. I feel like cutting and I can't get my note out of my head, I'm trying really hard to hang on, I don't want to hurt anyone, I really don't. I want my pain to end, these thoughts won't stop, they just won't. I haven't really said much about this because I don't want to burden anyone because I know i'm a huge burden. I'm sorry everyone, I really am, I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel trapped. I feel trapped in my torment and I don't want to let anyone in on this because I don't want it to effect anyone. I'm really sorry. I wish I could disappear sometimes because I don't want to feel this and I don't want to hurt anyone.