Im 18 and I think im going psychotic, I no longer feel any fear, I can't think too far into things, I no longer desire anything I used to either. I started having these headaches around a couple months ago, and couldn't get more than 2 hours of sleep if any sleep a night and that lasted about 2 months. I now feel like I'm a entirely different person, I'm looking back on all the bad ive done and i just don't care. I stole someones iPod, I robbed a kid and all i asked my friend is if the victims deserved it? what kind of fucked up question is that. No one deserves any harm done to them but I just gave in back then, but now I feel no remorse, no empathy, toward anyone. If my mother was crying I won't even bother to ask her whats the matter because I no longer care about anyone's feelings, not even my own. I also feel extreme anxiety when I just look at other men, I feel uncomfortable, threatened , and maybe that's because I was yelled at and beaten as a kid but that's just an excuse, I cant control anyone's emotions, only my own. I used to want nothing in the world but to find a nice to girl and be saved from my miserable life, but now I have no desires or dreams, no reason to live, nothing. I didn't even care when my grandmother died, and my grandfather was in tears. I convinced myself that I had cancer, then that I had a brain tumor, then that I was gay, then that I was possessed, and now I think im addicted to porn. Im going insane and I have to kill myself before I start to turn against people, just because Ive lost my morals, I cant treat other human beings like shit, I have to go now my brothers yelling at me and i don't want him to hurt me.