I have been doing well so far. It seemed that I reached a point where I felt the medication was acting as a mask and I could no longer experience reality freely. I started taking Melatonin at 300mgs which is combating the sleep problem of medications- which do rewire the way we sleep and dream. So far, nothing has happened except for one nightmare on the second night....ugh but my mom and dad got in a huuuuge fight and it really did trigger me into feeling like ----....but I am still going and struggling to stay stable. I don't feel as pressured into thinking in certain ways as I did when I was feeling conditioned by the medication. I wonder if my Pdoc will actually help/work with me on this. Or is she just as biased as most of them? That is the question I need to have an answer for, but yeah. I don't know how to get rid of a psychiatric label even if I can self-motivate myself out of the psychosis as I always have done...I just feel like giving in, and taking it but I do not feel sick yet....so....I do not know if I will get sick, and maybe I won't. I just wish it was made sense that's all, and my dad is being supportive....too. I want to write something for this amazon novel contest on createspace but I'm not sure I can do 50,000+ words in one day, I have done 20,000 though before in a single day, it was a memoir which is easier than fantasy or fiction.