I'm not really sure why I'm writing this. Desperation I guess. Like the Samaritans I guess venting somewhere just helps. So, I was really close to killing myself a couple of weeks ago. (By close I mean standing on railway tracks, at past midnight, but I wimped out). Since then I've talked to people, but I can never get them to understand why I feel like this, I've tried analysing myself, but the feelings keep coming back. I'm not feeling so bad tonight but I'm terrified that the darkness is going to come back and then I'll try again. I don't believe in religion or God, so please don't give me any of that stuff. Okay I'm rambling now, and I guess i need a question here, so here it is: Who do I talk to? Who is going to be willing to listen to me long enough to understand? Am I always going to feel like this? Because at the moment I feel like I'm on the edge and I've already fallen in before, I really don't want to go there again. Thanks for reading, any thoughts would be appreciated.