I fucked up majorly at my job, the only job I went to school for. But it's not only that, it's other thing. I think this has given me the fuel to self destruct. Tomorrow I'm going to will everything over to my friend. I know my behavior on this board is obnoxious most of the time, so I don't expect any responses. The pain is just too much. I can hardly hold on tonight. One I will everything over, that's it, goodbye.