I've started cutting again, but now it's worse. They're deeper and I can never remember the pain afterwards. I didn't even think about it. I was just in the shower and I picked up the blade and that was that. That really scares me. For the first time, I'm actually considering going to the doctor seriously. Should I take someone with me? I haven't cut for almost a year and even then only one friend knew about it. I don't know if I can trust her to think about my feelings though, we're not as close anymore. I don't know what to do. I can't go by myself. I'll end up leaving right before my appointment. But there's nobody else who knows, and I can't tell anybody else about how I feel and what I do. I don't want to burden them. I really need somebody to take care of me right now, more than ever. What should I do? Please.