It's hard to explain, and it's 3:30am so I can't think clear. I'll try anyway. Where ever I am I'm always afraid what people might think of me, I never talk I don't even have a personality. I have a very bad case of social anxiety, and it can't be cured. Plus I feel worthless and people often tell me that I am. In fact no one ever showed me that they care for me, maybe a few people would care if I died, but then it's too late. My whole life revolves about my problems and I'm never happy. That word doesn't even have a meaning for me anymore.