I'm in college and I had been so busy that I hadn't thought about how I was going to get my next refill. I called my old psychiatrist a while back and I don't think she'll be able to give me one. I can't find a psychiatrist without a wait of several months and my GP isn't comfortable with prescribing psychotropic medications. I didn't realize how low I was getting until I missed a dose while partying and now I'm panicking. I feel like I'm falling apart at the seams and I don't know what to say or do. There's so much that needs to be done and so little time and I'm going miles a minute. Yesterday, I was able to get up after heavy drinking and go to the gym, then hang out with a friend, then go to work, then do homework before going to bed and I felt great until the end. I realized that it was a mini mania and it felt good but the crash afterwords hurt so much. I'm losing it again.