There is one person on my facebook I have added that I feel I can talk to. She is a friend of my sisters but has come to be an acquaintance of mine. I sent her a message through facebook asking her to add me to her MSN so I can talk to someone. I wrote the message and sat there for fifteen minutes starting at it before I hit the sent button. I feel nervous too. I know I need to talk to someone but I've kept these dark feelings to myself for so long. But then I had a dream of killing myself and all the people who cared about me upset today and decided to talk to someone. Hopefully I'll still have the guts if she talks to me. I might just end up saying 'Oh I'm fine now." because I am extremely nervous. Not that she'll judge me, she isn't like that. I know she'll understand me. I'm just scared about finally talking to someone about it that isn't an online friend I met. This is someone who knows me, my family and my past. She has known me since I was eleven years old.