I'm in a bad place. help

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by vader74, Oct 22, 2014.

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  1. vader74

    vader74 Member

    Started being a great day, been looking forward to this day for a while, a long while.
    It was a treat for me.
    I started crying in the daytime at work.... I couldnt drive it was so bad.
    Had to pull off the road. I didnt wat to go home after.
    My treat turned into a nightmare.
    Now I cant stop crying.... and I want to go away forever. I'm traped here. What do I do? Who can I trust?
     
  2. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    What happened, why did you start to feel so bad? Here and listening if you feel like talking.
     
  3. vader74

    vader74 Member

    Im in a bad bad bad marrige, she hurts me every day... I said f it and got an escort today... so I could feal like a real person again. I saved for months.... I just wanted one thing for me. I know its bad but I needed this. It didnt go as well as I thiugh it would... and I think that is as good as iy gets.... I dont want to live if thst is true..... Why does everyone hurt me.... Why do they hate me? I thought family was there to love you??? Who can I trust??? Where do I go from here??? I cant stop crying ... I hate my life
     
  4. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    :hug: I'm sorry for what you're going through. Can you get out of the marriage? Nobody deserves to be in a relationship where they're being hurt.

    Take this one step at a time. Things can get better. It'll take some work, but this doesn't have to be as good as it gets.
     
  5. vader74

    vader74 Member

    I can't leave. It' very complicated. Theres only one way out of this marrige. I was a real person. A good person. Every body took that away from me. I hate me. Not fir what I did today, but for being so weak. I had talent. ... But now I need someone to help me. To come here and take me away...forever. So I can luve again .
     
  6. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    Nobody can take who you are, away from you. If you were a good person, then you still are. You're just a person that's hurting. I don't know your situation, but I do know that it has to be you that gets yourself out of the situation you're in. Having someone take you out of the situation probably isn't going to work. Is there a reason you feel you can't leave?
     
  7. vader74

    vader74 Member

    They took who I was away... I can't stop crying.....
    I cant get out of here... I need help please..... How do I get someone to help me? Who? Who can I trust?
    I'm a grown adult and I cant stop crying.... Why?
     
  8. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    This is a site where we can talk to you, offer support, but nobody here can physically get you out of a bad situation. That's something only you can take the steps to do. If you need support, someone to talk to, we can do that.
     
  9. vader74

    vader74 Member

    I'm not strong enough anymore for that. I had dreams... and they took them away. I had goals. I could feel life in me before. I'm like an empty shell now. I feel cold and empty now. I dont want tobtry again. I dont wantbto get hury more than what they hurt me now. Thrre going to miss me when im gone.
     
  10. vader74

    vader74 Member

    I cant stop crying.... Why?
     
  11. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    You're crying because you're hurting, and that's okay. You're human, and there's nothing wrong with crying.
     
  12. vader74

    vader74 Member

    Why do they have to hurt me? Don't they see what there doing to me? I dont smile anymore... who would care if I was gone tomorrow?
     
  13. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    I don't know why some people like to hurt others. I wish I had an answer. I do know that not everyone is like that, there are some genuinely nice people in the world.

    I need to log out in a few minutes, but I hope you'll continue posting here, reaching out for support. This is a safe place where you won't be judged. If you ever want to talk, feel free to PM me anytime. :hug:
     
  14. vader74

    vader74 Member

    If I could go to bed right now and never wake up, that would be the best thing ever for me. <Mod Edit, WildCherry>
     
  15. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    We're a pro-life site. So asking for or discussing methods in any way is against the guidelines. That's why I edited your post. I hope you can find the strength to keep holding on, to continue reaching out. Not everyone will hurt you.
     
  16. vader74

    vader74 Member

    But they do. I dont trust them anymore. My head hurts so much... How do I stop crying?
     
  17. NYJmpMaster

    NYJmpMaster Have a question? Message Me Staff Member Forum Owner ADMIN

    You stop crying by stop self medicating (if you are), and talking about what is actually going on. Talking about the actual problems , possibly here, possibly with a counselor or friend, or perhaps with a medical professional so you can get treatment if that is what is needed. There is little anybody can offer for advice if there are no details, so while you may bot want to talk here as many are not comfortable talking about things, you say there are not solutions you can see so you need to let somebody else help look for solutions.
     
  18. vader74

    vader74 Member

    Made it through the night, I will live to see another day. I'm not on drugs, dont drink, it's just me. Just me. Lets hope there is something you said that will stay in me and start to build from there. I hope there is.
     
  19. vader74

    vader74 Member

    Don't like this life....
    Work.... Sleep..... Repete.....
    I miss being held... My dad never held me. My mom died when I was young. I remember the day like it just happened.
    I have to stay alive for my children. I wish I could tell them. I'm teaching them to be stronger.
    I think they feal there is something wrong. But I cant tell them... Ever.
    Today I thougt maybe I was stuck in a dream, a nightmare. I couldnt stop crying. I cut myself. Not a nightmare, this is reality.
    I want to run away and never be found again... But I feel like the is no energy in me to move at all. I wish someone could hold me now. Why does the prince have to save the princess. Who saves the prince when he is fallen?
     
  20. vader74

    vader74 Member

    Where do I go to be locked up?
    Does anyone have to know?
    If I can run.... where do I go?
     
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