I want out, any way possible. He's verbally and emotionally abusive and controls every aspect of my life. I've asked him to get help, but he will not. He doesn't recognize that he has a problem. When us separating is brought up, he gets out his gun and starts to walk outside to "do what he should have done a long time ago." This has happened on more than one occasion. In an attempt to get out of this relationship, I have become suicidal. I'm so depressed that I can't do anything, I don't go to class and I pretty much don't leave the house. No one really knows about this, except my therapist. Whom I see tomorrow. When I drive, I have an overwhelming desire to swerve my car off the road, and I've started to cut myself to deal with the pain. I drink also when I get a chance, but according to him, I am not allowed to drink unless I am under his direct supervision. (I am a legal adult, and my drinking is moderate and responsible) I don't have much of a support system, I don't have a whole lot of time for my friends, and he has cut off most of my contact with them so we have drifted apart. I am very close with my family, but they live 1,000 miles away. This is so hard. Idk what to do.