I'm in crisis, but can't do anything.

suicidal thoughts are strong in my head. i have started self-harming. the pills are out of the draw. the voice in my head wont be quiet and he doesn't have anything positive to say. i don't have any phone credit to ring Crisis or Samaritans. i feel trapped. the weather is rubbish so i can't go for a walk which usually works. i feel as though the urges are going to become too much and i am going to lose control.
But if i can use a pay phone (if i can find one) then i don't feel comfortable talking to Crisis in this state, as fear of being hospitalized.
what to do.........

 

If you find a pay phone, I think you can request Samaritans to call you back, so you could get them to call your mobile. Or you could email them?

 

I've thought about this some. Only thing I can think of is maybe e-mailing the Samaritans, but I don't know how fast you can get a response. Is it possible you can borrow a neighbor's house phone and then walk outside the person's house and use it? :hug:

 

i don't have any neighbors. i live on my own on the edge of a village. im going to walk to the village to find a phone to ring Samaritans. even though its raining and cold, which will make me feel worse.
thanks for you advice.

 

Good luck finding a phone! :hug: Stay safe.

 

hi hun hope the walk helps to clear you mind even if it is raining sometimes that rain help me release tears inside. You come back and talk here okay keep talking we are listening hun hugs