I used to always be a happy person, at least mostly happy. I had an accident a couple years ago (3 story fall). I look great too, nothing really too obvious that you can see to make you think I've learned to walk, eat, breathe, etc. all over again. I had around a 30% chance to live they said. The problem is I survived the accidental fall and now I'm in constant pain everyday. My back, my wrists, even the feet i fell on. The girl I loved wont get into a relationship with me and I tried to go to school so I could get a good job to support myself later in life but I'm in too much pain to drive and sit in class. If I was by myself I think i would kill myself by now. I'm living with my mom and she's very christian and If I killed myself it would devastate her so I won't. I think after my mom dies in some years down the road I could see myself ending my life. I really don't know what to do. The pain killers dont work as good as they used to and I feel that the pain is getting worse everyday and I sometimes i just cry because it hurts so much. Im about to cry right now too I feel so bad and no one understands this pain.