I have such up and down emotions about my wife. I can get to thinking that I need to improve myself and let her see I'm strong & confident so she finds me hopefully attractive again, then I can seconds later think it's all hopeless & I have to do away with myself as I can't cope with the pain of not being with her. My latest thought is that I would have to literally move to the other side of the country to try to forget her as being where I am just constantly reminds me of her. All my family & kids are here but that doesn't make the slightest difference in my mind. I'm so wrapped up in my wife that nothing else seems to matter. I have never felt so bad in all my life. I actually went to work today for the first time in 3 weeks, I was so messed up lately that I just went off for a week or so just to get away from it all. I really don't think I can ever be normal again without her in my life. I'm seeing the doctor tomorrow to see if he can change my meds as the last lot didn't do anything for me, This whole situation has completely knocked the life out of me. I'm so unhappy & miserable.