so, for the past month or so I've been getting worse. At first, i thought, "this is manageable. I've gone into these spirals before and I always come out." But I'm starting to think that there's no going back. I've been seeing a girl that I really like for a little while now and instead of it making me happy I feel worse. I feel like it's impossible for her to actually be interested in me. I mean, how could she? Everyday, I feel like it's the day she decides to move on once she realizes how worthless I am. I feel like if she ever finds out that I feel like this: that I feel inhuman, disconnected and worthless, she's going to hate me. I should be thrilled to be with her but instead, I'm even more critical of myself. I can say with near certainty that I've become so screwed up that I can't have a normal human relationship with anyone.