I'm insane. I can't hide it anymore. I can't make decisions for me anymore. Sometimes I tell myself that maybe God is real and that I should follow the Bible, and then sometimes I tell myself that the Bible doesn't make me happy since video game art is against my religion and is considered idol making. All I have to do is get a real job and work really hard until I die with my talent and potential (which I have none since I am broken) because that is what the Bible says. Then I feel like going secular because that will make me happy, but then everyone I love will hate me, so it won't make me happy because then I'll just be selfish for not submitting to God and I'll go to hell. Then I think that I'm angry and that I should make a virus to wipe out the entire human race because it isn't fair I ended up this way, but then I realize that is impossible and I'm the crazy one, so it's more logical that I die and everyone goes about their stupid hypocritical and contradictory business without me.