for the record i am 20 years old but i feel like i just got born. i have achieved nothing real in this life. i cannot go about living like a normal adult in this world. its as if i have not been given the tools to survive. i just cannot go on like this. i cant. the numbness is getting worse. i have lost myself in isolation and solitude. suicide looks like a certain option in the not so distant future. i cannot get off this path.