All I seem to be able to do is bring down everyone around me. I'm not getting any better with medications, support, therapy any of it. Just got out of the hospital Monday, all it did was make me very angry being locked in a small room for 3 days being threatened by social workers about being sent 4 hours away. I dont work or get any source of income. I just see doctors and therapists nonstop wasting money. (mostly against my will) Im very frustrated searching for the right medications that everyone keeps saying we'll find. All day my mind is racing with thoughts of how i can kill myself. It wanders from anything to that. I can only take so much emotional pain and this is way too much. I have reasons to live but the pain keeps overwhelming me.