Ive felt this way for years, on and off. It usually starts with me remembering how well my life used to be, and how shitty it is now... then I hurt myself and someone gets police to haul me off to the hospital, where they give me medicine and a few months later it happens again. Im so tired of it, and just so damn sad. I dont even know what to do anymore. I want to die so badly. Sorry if everyone wanted some detailed story, theres no details. Just sad, and tired of living. Needed to say it to someone who couldnt call police to get me.