I'm tired of feeling the way I do. I'm tired of completely hating myself. I'm tired of seeing nothing in regard to my future. My peers talk about their futures, their plans. What career they want, the dream car, the perfect house, the notion of starting their own families. I cannot visualise myself at age 25 let alone at age 70; when others see a warm home filled with blissful memories I see nothing. Nothing awaits me. Depression and anxities have sucked the joy out of me, making my low self esteem and low confidence more prominent and just suffocating me. The fact that I am seriously considering ending it all is beginning to seem comforting to me, and that scares me. The only thing that has stopped these thoughts before is my parents. Picturing them when they find out what I have done, leaving them to pick up my crappy pieces. I couldn't do that to them, I feel like they have invested so much into me, things like their love and time, and that it is my duty to carry on and to continue on life's path. But as I've said, I'm just so tired of everything. I have lost interest in what life has to offer. I just want it to all be over.