emotionaly and physicly. this is long so bare with me.
My father left me, my mother, and my two sisters for somone half his age back in 2000 I believe(I try not to remember dates). He told everyone out of the blue one day "i'm in love with somone else" to and 11 year old and 9 year old, and his wife of 15years. he left that day- we then fund out the woman was somone he worked long shifts with in the psychiatric ward, and pregnant. :dry:
We then had a flood (Alison 2001, in Houston) and it ruined our entire house- everything was gutted and thrown away. the night it happened we broke into our next door neighbors home(used to live there), and had 14 people, 3 dogs, 1 cat in the up stairs of the home. He was nowhere to help-at all. the 4 of us lived with our aunt in a 1 bedroom apartment with a dog while she redid her home- for months.
I haven't spoken to him in over 5 years, as he disrespected my mother on the phone, after making my little sister break down. when we did see him it was every other week, always a movie and he ALWAYS walked out in the middle to talk to her. Mum had to fight for child suppot, still does. and he refuses to pay his half of me and my sisters medical bills which are hundreds a month.
I've been depressed for sometime, and my first counselings were this fall-awful. I've been on many anti-depressents, with Cymbalta I lost the use of my legs temporarily. Now I've been going to doctors since then atleast trying to figure out what is causing these terrible debilitating headaces. i've been in and out of school until moving and am homeschooled- I don't know anyone besides online forums and family. I've never had an actual friend and i'm nearly an adult, legaly. Spinal taps, IV treatments, cat scans, blood testes, atleast 100 perscriptions tried, etc. nothing shows up and noting works.
I'm so tired. I spend MAYBE 7 hours out of bed a day. I'm not getting scool done, and I cannot stop thinking of leaving. I HATE HAVING FAMILY! they are the only thing holding back.:sad: I cannot do pills after being near a kid who tried and will forever be a vegetable, and after a few incidents my meds are locked up .
okay sorry for the long intro, but thats me.
Dresden
My father left me, my mother, and my two sisters for somone half his age back in 2000 I believe(I try not to remember dates). He told everyone out of the blue one day "i'm in love with somone else" to and 11 year old and 9 year old, and his wife of 15years. he left that day- we then fund out the woman was somone he worked long shifts with in the psychiatric ward, and pregnant. :dry:
We then had a flood (Alison 2001, in Houston) and it ruined our entire house- everything was gutted and thrown away. the night it happened we broke into our next door neighbors home(used to live there), and had 14 people, 3 dogs, 1 cat in the up stairs of the home. He was nowhere to help-at all. the 4 of us lived with our aunt in a 1 bedroom apartment with a dog while she redid her home- for months.
I haven't spoken to him in over 5 years, as he disrespected my mother on the phone, after making my little sister break down. when we did see him it was every other week, always a movie and he ALWAYS walked out in the middle to talk to her. Mum had to fight for child suppot, still does. and he refuses to pay his half of me and my sisters medical bills which are hundreds a month.
I've been depressed for sometime, and my first counselings were this fall-awful. I've been on many anti-depressents, with Cymbalta I lost the use of my legs temporarily. Now I've been going to doctors since then atleast trying to figure out what is causing these terrible debilitating headaces. i've been in and out of school until moving and am homeschooled- I don't know anyone besides online forums and family. I've never had an actual friend and i'm nearly an adult, legaly. Spinal taps, IV treatments, cat scans, blood testes, atleast 100 perscriptions tried, etc. nothing shows up and noting works.
I'm so tired. I spend MAYBE 7 hours out of bed a day. I'm not getting scool done, and I cannot stop thinking of leaving. I HATE HAVING FAMILY! they are the only thing holding back.:sad: I cannot do pills after being near a kid who tried and will forever be a vegetable, and after a few incidents my meds are locked up .
okay sorry for the long intro, but thats me.
Dresden
