I'm tired of feeling like this. I'm tired of being disgusted by myself every time I look in a mirror. I'm tired of being the best and that still not being good enough. I'm tired of feeling so ugly. I'm tired of feeling so unwanted, because really, if my own mother cast me off when I was a baby, who will want me? I'm tired of feeling like because my breasts aren't show I'm not going to get the solo in the next song. I'm tired of worrying about my classes when school starts again because I know they're going to want more than I'm able to give. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of kissing people's asses to even get half of what others get because I don't come from money and my daddy's not on the school board. I'm tired of being sent to second clarinet instead of first because I have to miss some practices because my grandparents are over eighty and can't just drive me somewhere on the drop of a hat. I'm tired of feeling like my family is just waiting for me to be gone so they can not deal with me. I'm tired of feeling like my mother's shadow. I'm tired of feeling like I can never live up to the standards she's set. I'm tired of never being enough. I'm tired of being tired and I can't do this anymore. I don't want half-hearted condolences. I just want someone who can empathize.