Hi guys...I've posted here once before but everythings gotten worse... I went to the hospital for suicide last week. I stayed in the psych ward for over a week. The stay was awful there. It was an adult psych ward and I'm only 16. I tried hanging myself while in the psych ward but I was stopped. They discharged me ONLY because I was getting more depressed in the ward. The trigger was my boyfriend dumping me, in a really violent matter. It involved my abusive ex and my most recent ex and the memory will be in my mind forever. (the suicidal thoughts have gone on for six years though. This was a "trigger" ) He decided to give me a "chance" yesterday (the day after I got discharged from the hospital) and coaxed me into having sex with him again. I did that because he reassured me he wouldn't leave me if I did this. Tonight he just dumped me again. I am pushed to the edge, I want to die so badly. I just want to die. I am supposed to have two "safe contacts" in case I feel suicidal who I feel comfortable talking to. One was my ex and the other exploded and got mad at me and told me to kill myself. I can't take this anymore. I want to hang myself right now. I want to just die. No more.