hello everyone, maybe i could get some advice from someone. well im depressed its obvious cause my life sux... but here is the deal at the moment. i am in my mid 20s. my childhood wasnt nice, crappy parents, abusive father in every way.. i moved out 5 years ago and finally started feeling like a person, trying to forget the way i was treated and learning to deal with people and life... i made a bad choice of going back home now cause my situation wasnt stable.. i have no family yet and i am trying to build it, which i thought would be a good idea to come back here and earn some money, but i have to live with my parents and all other family members.. and now i see how different i am to them. completely. and i tell my friends (in other cities) about that and they agree that im a lot different. my parents are always negative, complain, yell and etc. and i have to live with them right now for a while and work with them, im never alone and im starting to lose myself. when i talk to my father i cant really look into his eyes cause he is an ass hole and really made me this scarry kitten. while i was on my own i felt like a person, woman, adult. here they make me feel like a kid, tell me what to do, just everything they do really makes me feel like a kid and i have lost all my confidence.. i dont know what to do with it. i need to deal with them about some my future plans, but i need to be strong for that, but its like i feel like a beatten up kid now and dont feel like an adult and actually afraid to say anything or do anything, thats what theyve made of me. any advice on how to feel strong? cause i know i am a better person but i feel really crappy. thanks... sorry if its not clear..