To anyone who cares, i'd like to say i'm fed up with my job. The job i'm doing makes me suicidal. My colleagues are mean hypocrites. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts last year and now those feelings are back.... after taking so much medication, and after so much therapy etc. ... I don't have much work experience, i don't have many skills, but i wish i could get a job where time flies and where i can be myself, where i can find satisfaction of the work i have done. My job makes me really insecure about myself, and i need money to pay bills like everyone else... I'm totally clueless. I'm such a mess... I know suicide is the easy way out, but it's been in my mind a lot these days. There's no easy way out in life. Everything has to be this hard...But why...?